She found herself waking up in the night to check his phone and lap top for signs of cheating. She made a note of a list of women’s names and numbers and began stalking them on facebook and Instagram. She felt like a shell of herself and didn’t like who she was turning into.
Sara felt so down because she was also attacking herself she felt ugly, fat, old.
As she began to look into Chris’s internet history for more clue’s she discovered more behaviour that alarmed her. Countless porn sites in his browser history and websites of foreign women offering extra services online.
She felt sick, who have I married she thought. Has the whole relationship been a complete lie? Did he ever love me and find me attractive? The relationship is hopeless she thought, I’ll never be able to trust him again.
Chris apologised for watching porn occasionally and not being able to stop completely but assured her he had not cheated, not been flirting or showing interest in any women and certainly not been hiring any online services.
They were stuck and not getting anywhere, so they went for a traditional marriage counselling session. Which was an absolute disaster they paid $390 for a 2 hour session where they just repeated the exact same conversation they had been having at home.
They had wasted 4 hours of their time with the commute and left feeling worse. To top it off they had a massive row on the way home as so much resentment had come up they were ready to call their marriage quits after 12 years of marriage.
It was falling apart more and more despite several attempts at patching things up... which always ended in what seemed like an even bigger problem between them!
Neither felt like the were being heard or their feelings mattered in the relationship